I am alone in my room on a Saturday night
and I don't wish for it to be any different.
I'm alone in my room on a Saturday night, and I don't wish for it to be any different. I enjoy this time to myself, to process my thoughts, to miss people without interruption, to see clearly without the noise of the world tugging at me. I let these thoughts run wild. I don’t chase them, I just observe. I view them as horses in an open field, untamed and free, kicking up tons of grass and dust, maybe glinting in the low light. A meadow, possibly. So gloriously lush and endless, the meadow stretches farther than anything I could possibly see. Each thought gallops at its own pace. Some are steady, some are frantic, some are pausing to graze on memories before sprinting into something unknown.
I love to let my mind learn and turn. I read pieces about quantum immortality, and about how consciousness is a continuous thread. I learn about the universe, theories of space and black holes and dimensions the human mind cannot even imagine. I learn about the depths of the ocean, the secrets that nobody knows and the ones that people want to. I study the history of the pyramids, wondering who stood there and what they knew that we’ve forgotten. My curiosity gets the best of me, google becomes my best friend. We spend the night with each other like old friends at a sleepover, talking about the many things. I ask all of the questions I didn’t know that I had. These nights on my own feel like their own secret little universe. It’s just me and this information sprawled out in front of me. And honestly, I wouldn’t trade this for anything.
I have been reminiscing on my day and it has been such a fulfilling one. so here is a list of ten things that made me smile today:
I got woken up by nugget (the cat) who wanted to snuggle.
It was a beautiful morning outside. the birds were out and the sun was shining so bright.
One of my lovely coworkers got back from a trip so I was able to visit with her about her travels and give her my life updates.
I met a lovely woman at my job today who was so passionate about the art around the city, she was beautiful. She had so much appreciation for the small artists and small businesses promoting the art. We had a lovely conversation about it.
I chatted with a girl who recently graduated from a college near me to be a nurse and it turns out she knows another amazing girl from my hometown. the girl from my hometown just got engaged, so happy for them. small world. congratulations to both of them!!
Walking into work I was asked if I had water to give to a man, I did and he complimented my new jeans I got from gap. He tells me good morning and good afternoon every time I pass him in the alley. I’m going to learn his name tomorrow and bring him some water again.
I talked to my mom on the phone for a bit. I love my mom. we call everyday to and from work.
I looked at flights to New York, i might go this summer. I am so excited.
I talked to some girls that stopped in to get some jewelry about restaurants and they helped me decide what to order after work. I got ramen from my favorite place.
some lovely people from high school posted their grad pics, I feel like a proud mom. so much joy to go around at this time of year.
short and sweet today, it felt like napping under the sun.
<3 liv